Wild Wild Desert.

Right now I need to go to the dentist, it's not urgent but it's the best time. And in a few hours my mother is visiting some of her friends and here lay the problem.

My mother wont let me go by myself.  Shocking !!
let me explain a bit....

In Saudi Arabia, it's not easy to just leave the house by yourself..not that the government wont allow you but stupid traditions believes that a women shouldn't leave the house by herself unless she is accompanied by her brother or father. A mother or a group of females is another OK to leave with...So putting your abaya on and just leave by yourself is not OK for most-and I mean most literally- families.

I do leave every morning with a driver-not mine just someone I hire from around here- to work and most of the time they are asleep, but in other times including the mornings of the weekends you need to take someone with you or just ask for permission.. which is very very humiliating for a 37 -almost 38 year old woman-or any woman in that regard- .
The only way in my family to skip asking permission is if my mother goes along. And in rare occasions my sister. Two sisters without a mother, a father or a brother equal zero.
And I love it when my mother,me and my sister goes places...any place.

Now what do you do when you need to go somewhere, to the doctor or the book store -which is a place my mother hates a lot-? .If she got nothing to do, she will accompany me but she is sick with a bad knee. So after let's say two hours she is either starting to get sicker,can not walk or just bored. I know that lots of time she try to hide it but I can tell and I can not just ignore that and go on with my business or having fun.

I can go alone, right? no, because she is too afraid that something might happen to me or being abducted by a scary taxi driver that exists only in the news!!. And that's really frustrates me a lot. I mean  A LOT.

Most times I keep it hidden and says OK no need to leave now, we will go another time, but other times I just can not.. I don't yell but I say things that upset her and locked my self in my room, exactly the same way a teenager would react.

my mother fear is suffocating me, it's unbearable lots of the times.

The funny thing is that this beautiful 67 year old lady would leave alone and with scary taxi driver and it's OK. I mean can she defend herself if being abducted and I can not !!!

I am going to be 38 so soon, I am a strong and independent woman and I can not leave the house lots of times without my mother approval.

Welcome to Saudi Arabia, where women can not drive, can not leave the houses alone cuz it's a wild wild desert outside.

P.S: If you are going to comment by saying "this is only your family and that not the fault of Saudi Arabia" , then I am going to say bad things to you and block you for good. <<< in a very bad mood, let me go look at my new books again :)