Blowing Off Steam

When I was younger, I was a very mad person, very. And angry most of the time. lots of reasons for that, but growing up things are cooling down for me or maybe I am just learning to blow off my steam when I am angry in the wrongest ways..such as food or sleeping. Beside, the wisdom of being old. 

I am less angry now and hugely less mad, but still things can irritate me so quickly. I think my students thinks I am crazy when I yell at one of them for the stupidest thing and then go back to teaching with a smile. It can be this quick to forgive and let go for me.

When I am made, it's better to be left alone, no one should talk to me. I am one of the people who would stay away or within -if I have to- but don't look at you or say a single thing to you so I wont say or do something that might hurt you or I regret it. Beside If I talk when I am angry I cry a lot. If someone tries to upset me or drive me nuts, I mostly move to another place. I hate hurting people and since I am a sucker, I know that I will go back and apologize even if they were the stupidest ones : )

I love the prophet's saying about how to blow off your steam when you are angry, if you are standing to sit down, if you are sitting down to stand up. To do ablution for nothing to stop fire but water.
I honestly wish I can do that or at least remember it but it always passes me by when I am mad or angry...
"big sigh".

aAmost everyone in my small or extended family are either a mad person or an angry one. BTW, I did check they are two different things, lol

For now, food is always the answer. But hey, I am still working on losing those extra kilos from the last 15 years : D



Note: So I proved to myself and the world that I can not commit to anything for a whole week, let alone a month. I wondered when I wanted to commit to a 30something that I might lose, I mean what would happen when I am in a bad mood-which is a lot- or sick- which is second to being in a bad mood- or just lazy-third place-. 
But you know what, I am just in the mood to continue but probably in a different way this time.
Instead of questions and answers, I will write about different topics drawn from different questions.