It's Great News :)

Well, it's great news.

 It's not a tumor.

The test I had was for tumors markers. And there were no tumors. 

I need to read more about it, because the doctor tells me that i need to be more careful and another test is needed in about 6 months just to be sure all is right. 

What a week !! . 

i honestly pretended that everything was OK with me and that i was fine, but then i couldn't. 

At first, it was only me, my mother and sister who knew but then my mother told my two brothers and basically then the whole large family knew about it. Thankfully no body talked to me cuz honestly i didn't want to talk about it or even think about it. 

i buried my self in the silliest things, lol, movies. I kept watching one after another, just not to think. But what's wrong with movies these days, they are all about death  , lol

I may sound crazy to say this but my mind was racing and the two only things i kept thinking about is how am i going to afford to pay for treatment and who is going to my mother and sister after my death.

I thought about death for fraction of seconds, bu honestly -and this is not new-death never scares me.Not that i am this great Muslimah but i have huge faith in Allah.

The last two days were the scariest. My mother couldn't stop crying, and i didn't know how to reach to her, it was me she was crying for. Usually i am great if it's someone else she is worried about. 

  I went to see the doctor this morning but the results weren't due so we had to wait till 8:30 p.m.. 

She has this wide smile on her pretty face when i entered the room ,he even cried when my mother started crying from happiness. And from that till now the phone didn't stop ringing. 

I guess i made it thanks to everyone's prayers including you my friends. 

Thanks a lot for your prayers and great wishes. AlhamduliAllah.