My Anniversary

So it's been a year.  

One year since i started this blog !!! i actually didn't thought it will last that long, but now i am intending to make it last for a while :)

I used to read so many Arabic and a bit English blogs before and i wanted to have one too. 

first, i didn't know how. Second, i am not good in writing, in expressing myself , in any language -Arabic or English-. I am not a talkative lady , i am boring and not an interested person at all. I don't like to talk and don't know how to argue so how am i going to write. I like to read but how am i going to make a blog about reading without writing anything about it. video myself reading for example ?? lol. 

Anyway, previous days before i decided to DO IT and have a blog, i kept going from blog spot to word press and vice versa. Though a lot praise word press but i couldn't work it out and i guess there maybe an abandon blog out there in the word press world in my name !! . So i finally started it here. It was easy as simple as that. 

I needed it, first i thought to share stuff with people and since i love pictures i thought maybe a blog about pictures, remember i am not good in expressing things so posting just pictures with no words seems a good idea. And maybe a bit about movies since i am crazy about movies. But i was all alone in here and since no one is around, i dumped it for a few days . 

Then i needed it , i have a lovely family who liked to have fights and screams and all kinds of trouble and since i mostly hid in my room afraid, i thought maybe i need to vent out a bit here and  i didn't stop , lol. 

I never thought i would last a whole year but i am glad i did it. 

I am more open now, yet still not good with expressing in good writing-you noticed that-.

I have met people -online- that i wouldn't have the chance to know and meet otherwise.

There was not a bad experience here like the ones some blogger talk about such as hateful emails and stuff and i am lucky in that i guess. 

Now i am addicted but at least it's the good addiction- i came from a family known of their various kind of addictions- . I loved to write, i love to read what other say and think. 

Writing is a therapy and since it's not common in here to see a shrink, i guess i found my shrink, there are lots and lots of things i want  to do and get rid of and i hope that it will be here. 

No one would believe how i felt when i talked about my brothers. That post, admitting i was sexually abused was something kept inside of me for a long time. No other place in my city would allow me to talk about such incidents. But now i do without troubling my mother with sad feelings. 

Just wanted to say thank you -everyone- for being here, 

for listening and reading, 

for your prayers ,

 for your simple love and acceptance. 

Thanks all :)