I am torn between wishing someone harm to save myself & my family and the guilt of having these wishes.
Did you feel torn and evil for praying that someone will continue being in his bad situation because if his bad situation turn into good then he will harm you ? do you feel like the worst of people for believing that and praying for that bad situation to continue ?
I am so evil for thinking that and for being this horrible person.
Hurting others to be save is not a way of life but that's how i feel right now :(
That's why I always pray to Allah to take out all the hate and grudge to others from my heart because we all humans have those feelings. I know it hurts to feel this way, but this is normal. We are not angels!
BalasHapusWhenever you feel this way try to think about something else, and just keep praying. Don't overwhelm yourself with guilt!
I hope you feel better habibti!
I don't know what to say 7bebti...as Susu said we r humans not angels....may God protect u and ur family from any harm inshallah
BalasHapusyou are not devil my dear nor an angel,you're just a human.
BalasHapusYou're not evil you're just normal!,and bad people should be in bad situations,maybe I'm evil but if I were you I'd totally hate their guts and I'll enjoy it!
BalasHapusI agree with naysan. Bless you. You know you are in my heart and prayers. I pray you situation can improve.
BalasHapusit`s a dilemma at best "oh thanks a lot!!!" :)
BalasHapusI dunno wafa2,,
such is life <=== nothing else upon my sleeve!
الله يريّح بالك
I sometimes feel the same, and can't over come the guilt. When i try to rationalize the situation i come to the point that we believe that bad people deserve to face bad situations and gt distracted with all that and just keep away from us.
BalasHapusRabena ye7fazko.
Susu,
BalasHapusI will try my best dear, thanks a lot :)
Whisper,
BalasHapusAmen ya rab and the same to you.
thanks for your kind words and prayers :)
naysan,
BalasHapusi just wish to be a better version of myself and not feel that way towards anyone :( . thanks for the reminder:)
Rain,
BalasHapusthanks for being this honest and this alive :D
Angelle,
BalasHapusAmen. Thanks a lot for your prayers and wishes :)
Haitham,
BalasHapusAmen :)
And thanks a lot for showing your concern even if there is nothing else upon your sleeve :)
Ze2red,
BalasHapusAmen ya rab.
I am trying my best to think of everyone equally but sometimes just can not, i guess i need more time and deep thinking and lots of prayers to reach this , thanks my dear :)